JohnLouisHoward

Bilinda Butcher! Aldous Harding! Marissa Nadler (her voice is like a siren)! RACHEL GOSWELL! Oh! For me, I'd add Joanna Newsom, Kate Bush, and Chan Marshall. And yes, the list goes on... To be fair, I don't think we'll ever really figure it out, never really ever be able to say "this is the ethical way to relate to an artist"... Hopefully, though, we can learn something from our very being unsettled, from being pulled in so many affective directions... I'm beside you, my friend, on that journey.

Rohan

The other day I printed out a bunch of poster-size old photos of the band, including one performance in Philly with Thom Yorke, who performs "Untogether" with Tanya... It's a touching moment... But am I merely *using* it for its libidinal value? How can I inaugurate an ethical relationship with someone like Tanya? That's what I'm really struggling with.

Yes, that was the sense I was getting too—but the worst part is, Tanya's resistance to her own superficial, performative fetishization *also* became colonized by MTV... In that same interview I alluded to earlier, MTV flashily displaced a quote from Tanya, all laureled up in messy script, reading: "I don't like it when people say I'm cute". So her own resistance to commodification became itself commodified, itself the paradigm of the "cool". The other thing I'm reckoning with is my own modest crush on Tanya; it's ok to be a little starstruck, I think, but I worry about co-opting her image, investing so much emotional energy in her before having given myself time to develop an intimate, authentic, intrinsic relationship to her music. I don't want to participate in the very economy of the image that led to Belly's implosion after the poor sales of "King"...

Don't know, I guess I'm just trying to wrestle with those tensions myself...

I know you're very much invested in the Muses, and that you've followed Kristin's artistic trajectory fairly closely... But what do you make of Tanya's post-Muses career? Have you heard her LPs with Belly? Her solo outings? I've been trying to get into Belly's 1993 record "Star", this week, which, as I understand it, was actually quite a hit at its time, though seemingly forgotten now. I think Tanya was very much caught between the tensions of that kind of "success" under the exclusionary indie apparatus—I watched a couple interviews on MTV where that was sadly apparent—but also discomfited by it, trying to find a way to self-consciously distance herself from it. But it seems she left the Muses, and later the Breeders, to chase something a little more "poppy", a little more "accessible"... But, I mean, how many times can you play "Feed the Tree", over and over again, (it's a good song, don't get me wrong) and still smile every time? She must have felt at least a little aloof...

Congrats on 300 followers!

Sorry to send a lot of messages, but this chat is not able to send such a large text at once, anyway

For example, the album dark side of the moon, I see the colors there as follows:
Gray, Black - Speak to me
Brown - breath
Gray, black - Ont the run
Verde - Time
Blue - The great Gig in the Sky
Black, gray, green - Money
Blue, purple - Us and Them
Yellow, green, gray - Any color you like
yellow - Brain Damage
gray, blue - Eclipse

It is very difficult to explain how "" "we see" "" the colors, because we don't really see them, but they are there, they are ALWAYS there

Like, we don't necessarily see a color in front of us when we listen to music. It all happens inside our head. It is as if I am listening to a song and in my mind it appears like an aurora borealis the color of the song. Nor am I the one who chooses the color, it's that and that's it. When I listen to the music, that color comes out of nowhere. And there is also something interesting, the more familiar I am with music, the more visible the color is. Maybe it's because I'm used to it, so it's easier to see. This "phenomenon" is pretty cool.

They say that only 4% of the population has this, but I don’t know, I think it must be a lot more, because where I’m going to look for, there are always dozens of comments from people saying they also have it.
The most common synesthesia is "hearing colors". I have to listen to colors, see words and numbers with certain colors, and connect smells to places I have been to.