jessie ✮⋆˙

(pinkvanesss)

“𝙏𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙨𝙘𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙉𝙞𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙢 𝙃𝙖𝙨 𝙍𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙈𝙮 𝘽𝙧𝙖𝙞𝙣”

I am a social worker for a mental hospital. I call the parents of the souls that do not remember why they lasted ten years in the visceral red hallway that led to the tip of the 5th mountain in the east. Transcendental nihilism rotted the core of my brain. I can no longer speak, move, talk, or continue the regular ... read more

When was the last time you forgave yourself?

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That’s a question many of us need to keep asking ourselves.

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It is my first day back home after being inpatient at a mental hospital for the fourth time in my life. My inertia is blurry and I really don’t know where I’m going. But all I can do is try.

So even if forgiveness of the self feels like something I haven’t felt in like ever, I must still try.

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Thank you BCNR for giving the world an ... read more

“𝙏𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙖𝙙𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩

𝙏𝙚𝙣𝙛𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙥𝙪𝙨

𝙊𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙞 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙪𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙨

𝙈𝙮 𝙥𝙝𝙡𝙚𝙜𝙢 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙪𝙨𝙩

𝘿𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙤𝙣 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙨𝙚𝙧

𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙩 𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙧

𝘼𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙤𝙞𝙙 𝙩𝙤 ... read more

When you first listen to it you question why it’s considered the best song of all time.

When you listen to it again the instrumental begins to speak to you more.

When you read the lyrics the badly mixed vocals begin to make sense.

When you’re in the right place in life, it becomes a mirror for your dissociative amnesia, lost desires, and wasted potential futures and destinies—a mirror for the darkest corners of the psyche.

Interweaving blurry memories, a winter coldness ... read more